the coal in my heart

Sometimes I feel the hatred i am carrying is a live coal in my heart, far more damaging to myself than to them…… I guess I need to learn to forgive many things in others… While the anger is making me smaller each passing day… Forgiveness is forcing me to grow beyond what I am….

When HE [[[Who’s plan is secret, Who’s authority is manifest, Who’s might is victorious & subduing and Who’s power is prevalent throughout and it is not possible to escape from His dominion…]]] can forgive us… It is hence understood that forgiveness is not an attribute of the weak… Forgiveness is an attribute of the strong….

Relying upon my past remembrance and HIS grace towards me… It really doesn’t matter if the person who hurts deserves to be forgiven…. Forgiveness is actually to move on…. Move on because the worst loneliness is not to be comfortable with oneself….. Move on to the glory of being alone.. in Solitude…

We live in a very tense society. We are pulled apart… and we all need to learn how to pull ourselves together…. I think that at least part of the answer lies in solitude… It’s enough of being afraid to sit a while and think…. It’s time to forgive… It’s time to move on.. It’s time to change from within.. It’s time to go inside myself to the place where I live all alone, and that’s where I can renew my springs that will never dry up…

thereby I ask for forgiveness from all those of you who I have let down..and from all those of you who’s expectations I could not meet… and for all those wrongdoings.. and for all those things I don’t recall having said… and for all promises that I could not meet… and for anything at all that displeased you…

and with this it ends that I hold no coal in my heart.

Published by Ali

Life is an eternal quest about knowing oneself.... I do my thing and you do yours. I am not in this world to live up to anyone's expectations; thereby a real loner in the crowd. Having said that, I believe that I am enough of an artist to draw freely upon my imagination. With the heart that feels and the mind that thinks...I am not myself in any degree ashamed of having changed my opinions a billion times to reach a correct conclusion. Without knowing what I am and why I am here, life for me is impossible. I just love to study how things came into being, Love to watch the impressions created on the sand of time. You would see me talking to myself and the reason I talk to myself is that I'm the only one whose answers I accept and I would like to be what I am. I like it that way. I also call myself a militant pacifist. As I am willing to fight for peace. In matters of fashion I flow with the current, but In matters of principle I am like the stiff rock in the ocean that is not moved by any of the waves. At the same time I realize that there are six billion people living, with another six trillion principles to a particular thing. Modestly, I would love to know them all and see If I can break that stiff rock of the ocean. Looks, Status, Wealth are of no real significance for me. What I aim for in my self and look in other people around is Wisdom, Modesty, Good Character, Honesty and Credibility.. These things are really important.. When I am saying being a good character, There are a lot of people who have defined it their ways. But I simply mean "doing what is right when nobody is looking" and When I say credibility, That is when they practice what the preach. those are the lines of my thought !!

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  1. It is very true and I can easily vouch for it having spent five decades of trials and tribulations. Once I was reflecting on forgiveness, it occurred to me that it is the greatest “self”ishness. I used to think that forgiving is great peoples’ domain and not of mere mortals. Now I know that if you forgive truly, then you don’t have any “केमिकल का लोचा ” (in Munnabhai’s language!) in your body and you are taking GOOD care of yourSELF!

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