Ali Hasni's Blog

the coal in my heart

Posted in Personal, Public by Ali on April 12, 2011

Sometimes I feel the hatred i am carrying is a live coal in my heart, far more damaging to myself than to them…… I guess I need to learn to forgive many things in others… While the anger is making me smaller each passing day… Forgiveness is forcing me to grow beyond what I am….

When HE [[[Who’s plan is secret, Who’s authority is manifest, Who’s might is victorious & subduing and Who’s power is prevalent throughout and it is not possible to escape from His dominion…]]] can forgive us… It is hence understood that forgiveness is not an attribute of the weak… Forgiveness is an attribute of the strong….

Relying upon my past remembrance and HIS grace towards me… It really doesn’t matter if the person who hurts deserves to be forgiven…. Forgiveness is actually to move on…. Move on because the worst loneliness is not to be comfortable with oneself….. Move on to the glory of being alone.. in Solitude…

We live in a very tense society. We are pulled apart… and we all need to learn how to pull ourselves together…. I think that at least part of the answer lies in solitude… It’s enough of being afraid to sit a while and think…. It’s time to forgive… It’s time to move on.. It’s time to change from within.. It’s time to go inside myself to the place where I live all alone, and that’s where I can renew my springs that will never dry up…

thereby I ask for forgiveness from all those of you who I have let down..and from all those of you who’s expectations I could not meet… and for all those wrongdoings.. and for all those things I don’t recall having said… and for all promises that I could not meet… and for anything at all that displeased you…

and with this it ends that I hold no coal in my heart.